I am pleased to announce that I will be running my first legit 5K!!!

Run, Walk, & Roll with Veterans

Sunday, November 10th @ 9am

851 Partners Way on Centennial Campus at NC State

Part of the proceeds go to Canine Angels. 

They save dogs from death row and rehabilitate/train them to be service dogs for veterans. 

I'll run for that!

I am also running for my Daddy.

My dad spent 22 years in the military.

He retired after 22 years with a medical discharge.

in 1991 he had a massive stroke shortly before my little sister was born.

He had to learn everything all over again.

His health was never that great after and he had many complications over the years.

He passed away in December of 2011.

I lost my best friend, the man who did everything for me.

I am still trying to heal.

I am running this for you daddy.

I am  also running this with and for my husband.

He has been in for 6 years now and plans to make this his career.

I am beyond proud of him.

 plus who doesn't love a man in uniform lol

The race is located at the university my little sister and her fiance go to. 

This race screamed for me to do it the second I heard about it!

Where did I hear about it?

Good old MLFC for NC. 

This group has always been there for me and I love all 7000+ ladies to death.

I am excited to finally be able to meet some fit campers in real life! 

As far as being able to run the whole thing, I prob wont be able to but I am going to TRY. 

I am starting training now. I pray I can at least not look stupid haha

I am beyond excited though!!!

This last weekend I got to go hang out with my sister and her fiance and they showed me around campus. That shits huge yo! They have all sorts of crazyyyyy chairs! 

They have these stones that you sit in that are very far apart but when you talk its like the person is standing right next to you! it was so crazy cool awesome! 

The Wolf Ears

 Got in touch with my Snookie side and tried some fried pickles for the first time.

A-MAH-ZING! 

Also had a ruben and tried a white chocolate hot chocolate

 overall great weekend!

Lately I my or may not have been a bit baby crazy. My cousin will be giving birth next month and I am beyond excited! I'm hosting her shower this weekend and I have gone all out for it lol What has caused me to write this post? I am currently watching were having a baby on TV and crying. Everyone who knows me, knows that my one and only dream is to be a mother. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE watching everyone else's littles and I adore being a step-mom even though its rare for us to get little man. Nothing compares to becoming pregnant, giving birth, and having your own flesh. Some don't realize how great they have it because they haven't had to go through what I have. Others have had it worse then me too. I guess you just couldn't ever understand if you haven't had to go through it just like you remind me constantly that I have no clue what its like to be a mom.

I fear I will always be infertile.

more like terrified.

PCOS is no joke. It can be a dream crusher. Not everyone is always lucky.

I just pray that I will be lucky.

I want nothing more then to have a baby with my husband.

I don't know what the future holds for me but I hope my dreams come true. 

 I may not be a mom but I'm the next best thing... A nanny, step-mom, aunt, cousin, & wife.

 Happy 3rd Birthday Kille Daddy & I love you to the moon and back :)

I was thinking long and hard about what it was I wanted to talk about in my first blog post of my fresh start and as I sit here I realized I just want to talk about my husband.

Lately this man has gone above and beyond what he should have to do. I have been having quite a bit of health issues lately and he has been nothing but a trooper. 

My PCOS has been acting up worse than it ever has in my whole life. I have been in extreme pain, severe bleeding & blot clots for over a month with no sign of relief. On my 2nd ER trip they gave me birth control as a temporary fix until I can get in to see my primary to be referred to a gyno/obgyn. They had me take 3 BC pills every day until the sugar pill week where I am to let it happen. Well its all back and 50x worse. I cant wait till those days are up so I can restart the birth control as normal so that I may have 3 weeks of temporary relief till I am this way again. I am going crazy. Literally ask poor Cory what he has had to endure with me. I am truly thankful for him. I know he hates seeing me like this and being virtually helpless, shit I hate it too! 

This is no picnic and if I didn't want a baby so bad I would have it all removed. I can say this tho something is not right with my body and its like I can't get a doctor to do anything. I mean yes my body is not right anyway but its not normal for my kind of normal if you know what I mean. 

Cory has really picked up the slack around the house, holds me when I'm crunched up in a ball of pain and helps me when I wake up in pools of blood crying. "pain" meds aren't working the only thing that has made a smidgen on the pain scale factor has been "pampern" and even then has barely touched it to make the pain borderline tolerable. its just been the worse time. 

Cory has really stepped up tho. I am so proud of him. I know he is stressed out with work, but he has earned his promotion. Things are starting to work out and line up for us slowly it just took a lot of hard work and time. We aren't perfect. We have had our fair shares of ups and downs but honestly at the ends of the day no matter what we end up in each others arms. Whatever may be going on disappears and everything is just right for a moment in time. I don't preach or brag about my husbands job because he is humble and being raised military the job is nothing new to me. 

It's the life I know. 

My husband is talented, knows his job well, is a Math-A-Magician, a Mr. fix it, has one hell of a killer personality, funniest person I know, can make me smile even when wanting to chew his head off, is the secretly most caring and sensitive person I have ever met, this man would literally give you the shirt off his back if I didn't stop him, an amazing dad when actually given the opportunity, he is the best cuddler in the world and lets me be the big spoon, he's 9000 degrees hotter then the average person and warms my ice cold toes and fingers in a jip, he has super smoking hot muscles with popping veins to open all the tight jars in the house, God literally invented this man just for me. 

I often think about when we get old who will pass first, and I always pray for it to be me...

I just couldn't survive without this amazing man here by my side.

Thank you baby for being such a great man, Thank you for caring for me, Thank you for loving me for who I am, the way I am, just the way I love you,  Just thank you for everything you do! 

You are greatly appreciated.