Recap from my first REI appointment.

First off I doubt Womack will ever stick to an apt time. 

I was finally seen an hour past my appointment time and was 20 mins early.

She got my history asked a million questions. Which I expected.

Cory and I need to both get some labs done. (which he happen to go in and do today)

He also needs to do a semen analysis test. (which he will do tomorrow)

Then I still need to do a HSG test since its been so long since my last one.

HSG test is a test where they run contrast dye through my ovaries, Fallopian tubes, uterus, and vagina to check for blockages. 

What fun! NOT! That junk hurt so bad last time.

In January if I haven't had a menstrual cycle, I am to call in so she can start me on some provera. 

Provera is an oral medication that induces your menstrual cycle. 

Then I give radiology a ring on day 1 of my cycle to make the HSG apt for days 7-12 of my cycle.

It's been said that sometimes your odds of conceiving are improved after the test for up to a year.

I don't know how true that is though.

after I complete the HSG test and other labs and Cory completes his part I am to call back.

She said that appointment is when we will make a plan and start with clomid.

She put me back on metiformn and I have to build myself up to 2000mg.

metiformn use to make me really sick so I am not looking forward to that again.

However my moto is... I'm doing this for a baby, for my dreams to come true.

Honestly, no matter how much things hurt or complicated things get, I'll always try.

I picked up my script today.

It makes me nervous.

So, I guess I will start tmw.

Can someone remind me of what it is that makes you more sick while taking this medication?

sugar, bread? 

I am suppose to have half days for work tmw and friday so I'll go do my other labs tmw.

Friday I get to go spend it with my little sister after work! I am excited lol 

It will also be nice to not be alone on the 2 year anniversary of my fathers death. 

I am so ready to start my vacation!!!!

PAY IT FORWARD MOVEMENT

Family #1

Hey my name is Randy here is my story I'm sure you have gotten a pile of them by now. April the 14th I tore the tendons in my left foot and broke the cartilage in my ankle I work as a captain at a fire dept and have been out of work since I had a nerve conduction test done last Wednesday and actually got the results today I have severe nerve damage in my foot and will have to more and likely resighn at work depending on my next Dr appt my sick leave and vac time are gone and also had 13 weeks of short term disibility is also gone my wife is trying her best to keep us afloat and I have been repairing tractors and mowers at home to make what I can but still behind on everything my wife and I have 5 children Crystal 20 Charity 19 John 15 Cathy 16 and Layla 15 months. thanks for your time .

(picture to come soon)

Family #2

I'm a mother of 4 battling renal cell carcinoma, adrenal insufficiency, hypo thyroidism.  I no longer can work.  My husband is on SSI for degenerative disk disease, they only pay him 619.00 mo.  I have no insurance, have applied to Medicaid and disability, but have been turned down several times.  
My uncle was living with us to help with housing expense, but he became terminally ill and left to go home to die in New Hampshire.  We are now behind on our rent and our landlord told us today is the deadline.  I have posted several pleas for help, but no one was able to assist, however I am grateful for all the prayers and information people have sent.  Stress is one of the biggest causes of my medical status.  I buy my meds in small quantities, because I'm unable to pay them at one time.  I am a self pay to my doctor or she doesn't see me.    My younger daughters try to help by making loom bracelets and selling them.  We know we may have a Christmas without gifts this year, but at least we would like to stay in our home which is dedicated to God.  We know that the true meaning of Christmas is the love of God.  I once was the seed shower and I still try with whatever I can, but now I'm on the opposite side of the fence.   Looking for our Christmas miracle.  I'm sending from my cellular I don't have internet in our home, so if the photos don't post I'm sorry.  There is more to our story, but it is too long to write.

  

Family #3

We are a family of four and my husband hours have been cut . Also I haven't been able to work since I'm currently in school and still cant find a job. It would be a god send to get help with rent versus presents because a roof over our heads is better than materialistic things. These pics were taken at a cousins wedding. If you need any info please don't hesitate to email.

(oped out pictures for privacy reasons)

Family #4

On Dec. 15th my family and I have to vacate a house that we have called "home" since 2007.

I did not bother putting up a Christmas tree, since we would be moving and the children do not
understand. I was laid off from my job of 3 years due to economic factors and unemployment is a fraction of my normal paycheck. Our only means of transportation ended up in the scrap yard, as it was more expensive to repair the transmission, than what I paid for the car, besides we needed the money for food. I am asking that if you have been at the bottom looking up, are a member of the working poor or if you have been blessed beyond measure and can help, please consider helping my family. I am trying to raise enough money to secure a rental for my family and a used car for transportation as well. If anyone needs proof that this is a legitimate request, I have copies of the Chap. 7 Bankruptcy and the order to vacate the property through the local court. I am praying that God will bless this request and touch those that read it.


http://www.gofundme.com/Help-The-Lambert-Family

Thank You For Reading.

If you would like to help any of these families in any way shape or form please email me at besaw2003@yahoo.com

Anything helps!

 So...

I have basically thrown 2 years of hard work down the drain.

I regained most of the weight I lost.

essentially I gave up on myself due to many factors in my life.

What now?

Do I continue to spiral down ward?

or

fight again... and keep on fighting? 

How could I have let this happen?

I am disappointed and ashamed.

DISGUSTED in myself.

I fell right back into old habits.

I'm not sure if I'm ready to feel better.

Sometimes I don't even feel like I deserve to be a success story.

Is that why I sabotage myself when I get so close?

I have to start back over.

I have to begin all over again.

it's so hard.

I know it's worth it though, because I miss how great I felt.

I want to feel that way again.

I know what I need to do...

why is it so hard to do?