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Monday, December 9, 2013

 So...
I have basically thrown 2 years of hard work down the drain.
I regained most of the weight I lost.
essentially I gave up on myself due to many factors in my life.
What now?
Do I continue to spiral down ward?
or
fight again... and keep on fighting? 
How could I have let this happen?
I am disappointed and ashamed.
DISGUSTED in myself.
I fell right back into old habits.

I'm not sure if I'm ready to feel better.
Sometimes I don't even feel like I deserve to be a success story.
Is that why I sabotage myself when I get so close?

I have to start back over.
I have to begin all over again.
it's so hard.
I know it's worth it though, because I miss how great I felt.

I want to feel that way again.

I know what I need to do...

why is it so hard to do? 

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