The Muzzy World

Cory had a couple of appointments today, one for his lower extremities and the other his eyes.

Dr. G said Cory's nubbies are looking great and he doesn't think it will be too much longer before he can wear a liner on his right nub too. There are still a couple of oozy spots that need to heal up first. He is now allowed to weight bare on all extremities. He is beyond excited about that. 

Dr. G is eager to steal him away from polytrauma and said once he gets the pain under control with the IV stuff he will be ready to come to the CFI. He is thinking with the way things have been going it will be soon.

Today in PT Cory stayed at 60 degrees for16 mins! That is Awesome! 

30 more and that is standing upright!

Cory's eye apt was interesting.

They said the graph they did last week didn't take and was just kind of hovering over the not good part on the cornea, but that the cornea was actually healing. So they are just going to leave it there and it will either come out a the next apt or disintegrate but either way was ok. He removed some sutures too that seem to irritate the eye. They are crazy tiny n smaller then a hair! He showed me n let Cory keep one o a q-tip in a bag LOL Things look ok in his eyes right now. They said in maybe 2 weeks they can take the oil out. Which will make it a bit easier to see. Then we have to wait for a undetermined amount of time to then do the cornea transplants, and then wait again for another undetermined amount of time to do lens transplants. So lots n lots of waiting. He is very tired of having his eye sewn shut that's for sure! 

I also got my MMA paperwork done so I can regain some loss of my income and be paid to be his caretaker. This rubs me in the wrong way but I am grateful for the help. The reason it rubs me in the wrong way is because I am the type of person who one is independent, two doesn't need to be paid just to take care of the one I love, three I would do all the same stuff even not being paid. However the money does help so I will be grateful and suck it up. Thank you Army.

After all the walking/pushing Cory around today I was dog tired.

I guess I finally smacked into my emotional wall tonight and cracked just a bit.

I was cuddling in bed with that wonderful man of mine.

We were talking.

I made a mistake the other day and hurt people I love without meaning to and felt really bad about it.

Well I started crying and then I just couldn't stop.

A lot of things bother me but no one would ever know it.

I guess I don't realize how much I bottle up.

I guess I can't always be strong like I want to be.

I didn't talk much, just cried.

(which is crazy in itself because I am 100% a talker)

There are no words for all the feelings inside of me or the waves of phases I go through.

I didn't cry enough, I can still feel them back there waiting to escape.

They will have their time and place.

For now it's just time for sleep.

Tomorrow is another day to go "Hard".

I hope you all have a blessed night.

My Heart & Soul!

nubbies looking great!

This is the bird I call Dad who comes n checks in on us!

Blanket given to us from Soldiers Angels!

There is Dad again lol

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