It has now been 20 days since I was awaken at 4:30 am to the worst news I have ever received in my life. It's hard to describe the sinking feeling, the lump in your throat, the uneasiness, and the capability to produce words from your mouth unless you have gone through something like this. You never for a second think anything can happen while our soldiers are at home lets alone to yours. I couldn't focus or comprehend. I was shaking and on auto pilot at the same time. A few deep breaths and I was able to pull myself together. MY husband has been involved in a training accident and I needed to get to the ER ASAP. Focus, call your cousin Amanda, get ready, let the dogs out, & GO. I was taken to a conference room where the bad news was delivered. At that time he had a brain bleed, broken right forearm, amputated right leg to the knee, possible amputation of his left was a possibility as well, and was blind in both eyes. I was ok with everything till he told me he was blind. I felt like it was so unfair to have all that wrong with him and for him to be blind too. I knew we could handle the other stuff just fine but him being blind scared me to death. My motto started then... "He is alive and that's all I could ask for, we will get through this" They took me up to a private ICU waiting room and there were cami's upon cami's that came to talk to me as well as doctors. The trauma doctor came to speak with us and told me it was really touch and go and he got a lot of blood as well, she was surprised he was stable. In no just terms she told me I was lucky he was still here. Then it was time... as an awkward line of doctors, nurses, and men in cami's stared at me, I got to see my husband for the first time. I know they were waiting for me to crumble. That sir is just not who I am. I held his hand and let him know I was here now, that I loved him, and things will be ok eventually, just to keep fighting for me. I never want to see my husband like that again. He was drenched in blood and dirt. a ventilator was breathing for him, pumping his chest up and down. He was swollen, his lips were so big I thought they would burst. his head was wrapped in gauze and he has staples on a cut on his forehead. hey had his body covered but I could see the outline of his missing leg. it literally broke my fucking heart but I refused to loose it in front of him in case he knew I was there or could in fact hear me. I needed/need to be his rock end of story. He is alive and he needs me. I went back to the waiting room, sat down numbly. The tears started. My cousin, my aunt, and my amazing boss and friend where by my side and took care of everything. I am so thankful to have had them there. It was all a haze, so many people talked to me, so many doctors, car managers, men in cami's with different jobs and ranks. I will never remember them all or be able to organize which business card goes with who. I had 2 amazing chaplains who have been with me through this whole thing I will call them chap S and chap C. They were simply amazing! Cory needed to be transferred to another hospital who could better accommodate all his needs for what was wrong with him. They settled on Duke and found room for him there. I have never heard anything bad about Duke and everyone has always said great things so I knew we would be in good hands. The EMS team came from Duke and picked him up. After chap retrieved Cory's personal effects for me we headed home so I could pack some over night things. By the time we made it to Duke they has already corrected his brain bleed! He had several more surgeries that lasted all the way into 3am. Duke has been working on him non-stop and I have nothing but nice things to say about Duke and Dr. Shipiro and his teams. They are the best of the best. (at least in my eyes) in these 20 days Cory has come soooooo far! He is in recovery mode. He still has many surgeries left but I know we will be ok no matter what. He has a long road to full recovery but it is attainable. please keep praying for us and especially his eyes! if you would like to follow his journey please visit his Team Muzzy page. There you can also find links to fundraisers to donate, get shirts, magnets/stickers, or just leave message/prayers.

https://www.facebook.com/theteammuzzy

Sorry it took so long y'all but here it is! My first video haha and it SUCKS but I'll do better from now on promise! Anyhow all the products are shown that I tried out. This is just my natural everyday kind of look.







I had pandora playing on my phone and it sounds a lot louder on here then it really was! sorry!



Below is the list of make up I used in the video plus some extras I use often:



CoverGirl CGSSmoothers BB Cream 810 light-medium spf21 tinted moisturizer (beach look)

HardCandy CC spf15 light

Physicians Formula set, creamy natural, light bronzer, natural blush, miniral wearing airbrushing spf30

Loreal Double Extend mascara black

Hardcandy Megawatt Smile 3127

Hardcandy all glossed up hydrating lip stain

LA Colors shadow bep414

Mabelline megaplush volume express waterproof very black mascara (beach look)

Hardcandy so baked bronzer 129 tiki

Hardcandy glamoflaugh light (concealer)

OFRA conceler tri-pot lt #051011

Hardcandy tinted lip balm fishnet 407 (beach look)

Maybelline made for mocha shadow 2255

OFRA eyeliner black

NYX matte finish setting spray

Covergirl magestic hazels shadow 715 (other shadows I use)

Revlon color stay shadow 11060 (other shadows I use)



Thanks y'all!

Howdy!

Today is the day I have finally made it up to 2000mg of Metiformn. 

YAY!

(said no one ever)

I am deff going to be asking for the extended release version.

Hopefully that wont mess me up so bad.

Here's the TMI down low:

-This is a "shitty" drug. Eating certain foods can make you camp out  near a potty and be prepared for a volcanic eruption. (sweats, shaking, & excruciating pain often occur.)

-They recommend a Low Carb Diet. Even when you think your doing good, your body seems to laugh at you and makes you refer to the section before this. Then you wrack your brain trying to figure out exactly what you ate for this to happen to you again.

-I pretty much feel nauseous all day every day.

Somethings I need to try & remember:

-Drink plenty more water. I know I am not getting enough.

-Stick with meat, fruit, veggies, and dairy. I should be fine.

-Never let a bathroom out of my sight. Just in case.

-Carry smelly goods in my purse for the same reason. LOL

Other then the shit time. Things have been ok. I have been waiting on a cycle to come around but good ole aunt flow hasn't shown her ugly face yet... I am currently taking 10mg of provera for 10 days to induce her but no signs so far... Once she rears her head I can call in and try to schedule my HSG test. 

I just keep telling myself that this is all for my dreams to come true. No matter how tired I get from swallowing a handful of drugs its worth it.

After some poking from the family, Cory and I decided we can go ahead and start making our nursery!

No I am not pregnant yet. Like my cousin says we are putting it out into the world and making it so. I am tried of being scared. Yes, I did it before but it wasn't meant to be either. Plus it gives us copious amounts of more time to get things ready and in place. I want to make sure we have everything we need!!!

We also have names picked out for both genders and if there happens to be more then one lol

I need to get back to losing weight. Its been on the back burner for me. I've gained it all back and it sucks.

I need something that can give me more energy that I can take while doing infertility medications.

Cory & I also decided that once we do conceive and it comes time to find out the gender/s that we will have the doc write it in a card and seal it in a envelope. Then we will have a gender reveal party with everyone we care about and all find out at once!!!! (people from far away will be Skyped in!)

Well that's about it for now!!!

Thanks for letting me bore you to death :)

Product Reviews!

So for over a month now I have been trying a new shampoo/conditioner.

I had the problem of way to much hair falling out and my sensitive skin acting up. 

(think like allergic)

So I got online and did a little research for organic solutions.

I came across Avalon Organics.  

I purchased a 32 oz pump bottle of their Thickening shampoo & conditioner.

(here is a link to the specific SHAMPOO page & CONDITIONER page)

I have had literally 90% less fallout. My hair is softer and it has even been growing!

My Husband even noticed a huge improvement.

So bump you PCOS you will not be making my hair icky!

It did take some getting use to this product because it doesn't lather up and go on like others I have used in the past. I use about 4-5 pumps each to feel like I'm getting the job done. My hair feels like a rats nest and kind of stiff but I got over it and purchased a serum to help it be manageable after I got out of the shower. I wash my hair every day in case that has an effects as well.

Now on to the serum! 

I knew I would need something to help the rats nest mess I have when I get out of the shower. 

So I got some Repairing Awapuhi Ginger Penetrating Oil from Oraganix.

Organix Products can be purchased at Walmart!

This stuff smells amazing!

I put a dime size in my hand, warm it up by rubbing my hands together and then run it through my towel dried hair starting at the ends first. This makes it s much easier to brush the tangles out! 

It also protects my hair when I blow dry and straight iron it! 

End result is my hair looking thicker, shiny, and soft!

My husband has scalp issues as in wayyyy too much dandruff so I decided to switch his shampoo/conditioner as well!

I got him the Scalp Normalizing Shampoo & Conditioner.

He has far less dandruff as well. 

He however doesn't wash his hair every day and I think if he did, it would be gone completely! 

I also purchased the Lavender Shower Gel in hopes that it would get along with my sensitive skin better!

It has!

Overall I am beyond pleased with the purchases I have made and they all work amazing!

I didn't buy the products from their website though. 

I spent less at Lucky Vitamin!

They also threw in some samples of Tom's whitening toothpaste with coupons!

(this is Tom's actual website)

Which I also love! It totally works but I wish it didn't taste like baking soda!

(this is not a paid review, just a happy costumer!)

Hellllllllo 2014!!!

Happy New Year Everyone!

A couple of weeks ago I decided January 1st would be the start of me getting back on track.

I had time to get things out of my system.

This is my 2nd attempt on changing my lifestyle.

It worked last time until I just gave up 100%.

I now know how real insulin resistance is with PCOS and how big the role of food plays in my life.

In 6 months of being off the life that was good for me I quickly put back on 32 pounds!

Holy cow!

I started Metiformin and prenatal vitamins today too.

(which sitting here, my memory returns about how "shitty" it is taking this drug)

2013 was a great year for me! However, I am glad its gone and ready for this new year!

I have weighed in, measured and took my before pictures.

Not feeling good about myself at all.

in case you cant see its 202.6 lbs

On to less humiliating stuff!!!

We finally got a new dishwasher thanks to a friend catching it on a yard sale group!

Its amazing and works better then the one we had even before it broke!

We also got different coffee/end tables! 

My husband (the best one in the whole universe) got me a new ride!

Yesterday I was gifted with a 2012 Chevy Transverse!!!

She wasn't even on the lot to sell yet!!!

I named her Lola and she will be ready for me on Friday! 

I can't wait!!!

I don't think their's any better way to start a new year then in your dream ride do you?

We had a really great holiday season this year and I hope you did too!

We are so blessed and thankful!!!

Love, the silly Muzzy's!

Recap from my first REI appointment.

First off I doubt Womack will ever stick to an apt time. 

I was finally seen an hour past my appointment time and was 20 mins early.

She got my history asked a million questions. Which I expected.

Cory and I need to both get some labs done. (which he happen to go in and do today)

He also needs to do a semen analysis test. (which he will do tomorrow)

Then I still need to do a HSG test since its been so long since my last one.

HSG test is a test where they run contrast dye through my ovaries, Fallopian tubes, uterus, and vagina to check for blockages. 

What fun! NOT! That junk hurt so bad last time.

In January if I haven't had a menstrual cycle, I am to call in so she can start me on some provera. 

Provera is an oral medication that induces your menstrual cycle. 

Then I give radiology a ring on day 1 of my cycle to make the HSG apt for days 7-12 of my cycle.

It's been said that sometimes your odds of conceiving are improved after the test for up to a year.

I don't know how true that is though.

after I complete the HSG test and other labs and Cory completes his part I am to call back.

She said that appointment is when we will make a plan and start with clomid.

She put me back on metiformn and I have to build myself up to 2000mg.

metiformn use to make me really sick so I am not looking forward to that again.

However my moto is... I'm doing this for a baby, for my dreams to come true.

Honestly, no matter how much things hurt or complicated things get, I'll always try.

I picked up my script today.

It makes me nervous.

So, I guess I will start tmw.

Can someone remind me of what it is that makes you more sick while taking this medication?

sugar, bread? 

I am suppose to have half days for work tmw and friday so I'll go do my other labs tmw.

Friday I get to go spend it with my little sister after work! I am excited lol 

It will also be nice to not be alone on the 2 year anniversary of my fathers death. 

I am so ready to start my vacation!!!!

PAY IT FORWARD MOVEMENT

Family #1

Hey my name is Randy here is my story I'm sure you have gotten a pile of them by now. April the 14th I tore the tendons in my left foot and broke the cartilage in my ankle I work as a captain at a fire dept and have been out of work since I had a nerve conduction test done last Wednesday and actually got the results today I have severe nerve damage in my foot and will have to more and likely resighn at work depending on my next Dr appt my sick leave and vac time are gone and also had 13 weeks of short term disibility is also gone my wife is trying her best to keep us afloat and I have been repairing tractors and mowers at home to make what I can but still behind on everything my wife and I have 5 children Crystal 20 Charity 19 John 15 Cathy 16 and Layla 15 months. thanks for your time .

(picture to come soon)

Family #2

I'm a mother of 4 battling renal cell carcinoma, adrenal insufficiency, hypo thyroidism.  I no longer can work.  My husband is on SSI for degenerative disk disease, they only pay him 619.00 mo.  I have no insurance, have applied to Medicaid and disability, but have been turned down several times.  
My uncle was living with us to help with housing expense, but he became terminally ill and left to go home to die in New Hampshire.  We are now behind on our rent and our landlord told us today is the deadline.  I have posted several pleas for help, but no one was able to assist, however I am grateful for all the prayers and information people have sent.  Stress is one of the biggest causes of my medical status.  I buy my meds in small quantities, because I'm unable to pay them at one time.  I am a self pay to my doctor or she doesn't see me.    My younger daughters try to help by making loom bracelets and selling them.  We know we may have a Christmas without gifts this year, but at least we would like to stay in our home which is dedicated to God.  We know that the true meaning of Christmas is the love of God.  I once was the seed shower and I still try with whatever I can, but now I'm on the opposite side of the fence.   Looking for our Christmas miracle.  I'm sending from my cellular I don't have internet in our home, so if the photos don't post I'm sorry.  There is more to our story, but it is too long to write.

  

Family #3

We are a family of four and my husband hours have been cut . Also I haven't been able to work since I'm currently in school and still cant find a job. It would be a god send to get help with rent versus presents because a roof over our heads is better than materialistic things. These pics were taken at a cousins wedding. If you need any info please don't hesitate to email.

(oped out pictures for privacy reasons)

Family #4

On Dec. 15th my family and I have to vacate a house that we have called "home" since 2007.

I did not bother putting up a Christmas tree, since we would be moving and the children do not
understand. I was laid off from my job of 3 years due to economic factors and unemployment is a fraction of my normal paycheck. Our only means of transportation ended up in the scrap yard, as it was more expensive to repair the transmission, than what I paid for the car, besides we needed the money for food. I am asking that if you have been at the bottom looking up, are a member of the working poor or if you have been blessed beyond measure and can help, please consider helping my family. I am trying to raise enough money to secure a rental for my family and a used car for transportation as well. If anyone needs proof that this is a legitimate request, I have copies of the Chap. 7 Bankruptcy and the order to vacate the property through the local court. I am praying that God will bless this request and touch those that read it.


http://www.gofundme.com/Help-The-Lambert-Family

Thank You For Reading.

If you would like to help any of these families in any way shape or form please email me at besaw2003@yahoo.com

Anything helps!